As a Matter of Fact

I have some good news....my voice is improving.  I have had a solid week of a pretty strong speaking voice.  Today, I was working at the Parma church and, at a point in the day, all the other workers left and I was alone in the building.  So I took a break and laid down on a pew in the sanctuary staring at the ceiling (hoping I wouldn't get caught laying down on the job :)...it is such a beautiful, quiet little sanctuary...of course it is hard for me to rest in a quiet sanctuary for very long without testing the acoustics :)...So, I started singing Amazing Grace and my voice didn't feel strained.  That is a praise :)

I have mentioned some of my feelings about not being able to sing a few times in my blogs....I have gone from sad to frustrated....to thinking about what it would be like if I never could sing again to wondering what else I would do...what else I could find that much pleasure in as an expression of worship.....to asking God to show me if there is anything specific He wants to teach me through this....to thinking....

(Ha!  I just got pulled away from writing this blog to pull a tooth ;)....I am happy to say it was a success and there were no tears....DANIELLE is great at losing teeth! She is writing a note to the Tooth Fairy right now....they always want to ask the Tooth Fairy questions when they put the teeth under their pillows.....we have quite the collection of Tooth Fairy responses to questions about what it is like to be a Tooth Fairy... :) Hmmmm....I'll have to think on that too :)

Anyway, lots of things can start to matter a whole bunch to us as we live....we start collecting things that matter (other than teeth :)....stuff that matters, people that matter, ideas that matter, songs that matter, talents that matter, places that matter (like the little sanctuary)....but, what if we lost it all?....all that stuff.... gone.... that we find so meaningful....or, are we willing to give it up if we are called to do so?

Having to take a break from singing has really helped me listen to the words...and listening to the words has made me so overwhelmed at times by the messages that I would ask myself if I live by and believe all the words I sing.  They are so easy to sing....pretty sounds that make pretty songs, but are they REAL to me....so they translate to FACT in my life?  What moves me?  Is it just the emotion I feel or am I moved by the ONE WHO REALLY MATTERS?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qFjWOeyFUho

My love is chaotic, but HIS is constant.