Just Before You Found Me

Just before you found me....I was sitting here hiding from you.  

I was thinking that maybe I could be...no, YES.  I would be!

I'd put my mind to be....

Invisibly here, and you'd have no clue.

Then those silent giggles got me....

I started grinning, shaking, rocking --

desperately hoping my inside laughter

wouldn't echo out in full view.

As I waited, I started to wonder

about which moment you might thunder

upon my hiding place....scaring me so

I might scream straight through.

Then a strange thought overcame me....

what if you are just playin' me....

how long would I stay in here 

only to be found a fool?

I laughed again....only this time, shakily.

Were you just out to take me?

I started doubting your promise to be true...

and that's right when you broke through.

Kassi just told me a story that she was playing hide and seek in the church and she hid in the pulpit (because she is small and could fit :)  She said no one could find her there, so they gave up and started playing something else.  She said she waited there a long time for someone to come find her and then she just came out and she was upset that they didn't keep looking for her.  I decided to just reinforced to her that she must have found the best hiding place in the whole church if they couldn't find her.....(but, I know stuff like that can cause hurt feelings) The same exact thing happened to me once...I was also tiny and could fit into small places, so I hid in the nook of a tree (now that I think about that it is disgusting to wonder what other critters where hiding in there with me)....I waited sooooooo long.....you know it always feels longer than it really is, but I could hear everyone's voices coming from the bonfire and I knew they were finished.....so, that's when you start wondering what's going on....why aren't they still looking for me?  I have always been super sensitive, so that moment hurt my feelings and thus a poem came from some of my thoughts about that.

People won't always "find" us in the moments we need them to or want them to.  There is no way they will be able to know how to understand us or pursue us to the point where we will always feel valued.  I have encountered those fabulous moments where someone knows just what to say to me, pray for me, or they give me a hug at the perfect time, but those moments are rare. That is why we cannot allow people to dictate our value to us.  

God will never forsake us.....he won't leave us hidden in the pulpit or in the nook of a tree waiting for HIM.  

He will show up for you and you will know you've been found :)