Our short meetings with the girls have been going fabulously! We have been to a softball game, horseback riding, playing frisbee in the yard, to a couple cookouts, and tonight we had a wii dance competition..Brad even made up brackets for it...haha! AND, the complete irony of it all is that out of all the girls dancing in the dance-off...who would you think would win?...BRAD! I guess complete irony would have been if Kooper would have won, but Brad is a close second.
Something I have learned and am learning is that this process is changing me...for one, just knowing I am following a plan God has clearly laid out for me (as a part of this family) is so fulfilling...it has been a while since I have felt this much fulfillment in my spiritual walk and I have been enjoying this closer walk with God. BUT, also, with us beginning to see the girls only for short blocks of time...we try to plan our time wisely and we try to spend a lot of time with them and working to bond in different ways. I have been seeing my "mom" role in a slightly different light as I have realized I had not been making this kind of effort in my time with my girls previously and I see this as a refreshing opportunity to "renew my vows" of mothering. This renewal is a gift...the complete irony is that just when you think you have really given God a terrific gift...you realize He has "thanked you" with a blessing that is better than the gift you just gave away.
I learned the same lesson when we kept our nephew last summer! I was reminded that I was not spending enough time building relationships with my children when I was putting a lot of effort into his little life!
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So true...and this is why I am learning to be grateful for the times He guides, corrects, or brings me to repentance...though those convictions can hurt. As always, thank you for your comments...it is wonderful to share this journey with you.
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